determined. this is probs gonna become like some thinspo blog wwensdk :p BUT seriously :p wtf man i’ve let myself go and i’ve never gotten so many hey you gained weight comments in my life. ): i’m fine with what i look like now and i know it’s healthy and shit and losing 10 pounds is probably gonna make me look a little anorexic but if so i shall just eat my way back to 125lbs again! :”) 

hahaha damn all my friends for being so god darn skinny :p 

TORN- lovely

ASCEND - so very very lovely, the best ending i could possible imagine and hope for :”)

the scorch trials - ok, good build up to the next book tho

the death cure - purely amazing, sums up all the questions

MUCHOS GRACIAS! (:

haven’t done anything with my blog since like… forever. so here’s basically my holidays :

LOL i look ultra pedo here

snippit from one of my hundred failed attempts at making a video.

HAPPY EASTER :D thank you jesus for dying for us :3

le good friday + end of term 2. 

chilled, boring school day. got 39/50 for math which isn’t acceptable :/ handed in my options form which means for the next 2 years imma be studying;

1. chem
2. bio
3. physics
4. english
5. literature
6. art
7. geography
8. math
9. ICT
10. mandarin

it’s going to be hard but i know i can do it :)

went to church at night and since i sat way back didn’t really listen much :s was good tho i guess :) then my mom got super pissed at me and we left a wee bit early :3 

saturday

DID NOTHING. completely nothing. chilled infront of my computer the whole day, ate food, snacks anything. oh but i did go out to buy cheezels and i have finished them. le nom 

came back home and my moms just like NICOLE GET READY FORMAL DINNER TONIGHT LOOK NICE. and im like screwwwwwwwww showering! :D will rinse off later but not gonna wash my hair cause atm it’s relitavely straight and i don’t want to damage it by straightening :(

SOOOOOO, yeah. cause im a kewl bean and i look like a racoon!!!!!

and if actually give two shits about makeup (IDK WHY but you do THIS IS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE UP CLOSE :O)

0 face makeup as you can tell by my 23924392 pimples and blemishes cause i really don’t want to mess up my skin again, and it’s beginning to get better (finally)

all that glitters & handwritten by mac on my eyelids solar white in the cornaaaaaaaa

random black waterproof liner for my upper waterline 

body shop liquid liner in black (no shit)

loreal telescopic 

lustering by mac on my lips 

pink sugar on my cheekssssss

on saturday i went to ou and shopped around for a while then met up with willy and killed my feet by walking around the whole mall back and forth for a jacket D:

then on sundayy (TODAY) went to church where a bunch of people asked me to sit with them and im just like NO IM SITTING WITH MY MOM DONT YOU SEEEEEEEEE

yeah. now watching milia dance sexily. 

idc what anyone says camp was the bomb dot com :( HUUHUHUH i miss it so much, spesh since stressful times (exams) are coming up its just :( sigh

all the conversations we had in the bus that i partially regret. sighhh love you bus buddy teowstaaaaaa :( AND THE REST OF GROUP B <3 how bored i would’ve been on the 4 hour bus rides there and back <3 miss them so muchiez :(

and the first night in the room where we talked for AGES when we were tired as shit. and the second night too when we wanted to talk for a long time but we ended up sleeping… :3 SIGH LOVE YOU CWYSTAL :”( ROOMIEZ 4 LIFE

sighshighigisghigishggigihghigihhghgi memories are all i have left. :(

boring usual week so far, quite a bit of hw but i kinda like it cause it gives me an excuse not to study but i still feel somewhat productive… heh

RACOON EYES~~~

btw im not actually wearing makeup as you can tell my my extremely exposed pimples (fml) but for some reason my eyes decided they wanted to be taylor momsen for the day.

i hate it when people think their ALL THAT or whatever or just when they think they know more than i do and even when i’m just like no. this is right. they just go like NONONONONONO THIS IS RIGHT! and i have to be like hey, calm down, i’m right okay shut up. :p

spent saturday studying mostly, grazed roughly through yr 8 physics and chem, will probably go through yr7 bio chem and physics cause i feel like i’ve forgotten all of that shizzz :P 

today (sunday) woke up at like 8.. why.. idk… showered, went to church and did a horrible thing i will not explain then ian drove me and liz to curve and we did stuff then watched john carter which i have to say was not really my cup of tea, for me it was actiony, but not actiony enough to be interesting, and there was romance, but it didn’t have enough romance for it to be interesting, i guess it was very kid appropriate being a disney movie so.. idk i didn’t really like it but i’m sure some people will, then they dropped me back home and went to my moms friends house for dinner yay

conclusion: tired as a mofo